Story

"Stories set the inner life into motion, and this is particularly important where the inner life is frightened, wedged, or cornered. Story greases the hoists and pulleys, it causes the adrenaline to surge, shows us the way out, down, or up, and for our trouble, cuts us fine wide doors in previously blank walls, openings that lead to the dreamland, that lead to love and learning, that lead us back to our own real lives as knowing wildish women."

Clarissa Pinkola Estés, Women Who Run With the Wolves, p. 20

Story certainly did all of the above for me, first the stories of someone else, then my own stories.

I read the Southern Vampire Mysteries in the early summer of 2009. I bought one paperback a week at the Borders, which sadly since closed, in Riverhead, NY. I tried to write for years but always in someone else's voice or style. When I read Charlaine Harris's hugely popular books, I realized I can say that. I can use that language. It's okay.

 I had a somewhat vague idea for a vampire story in mind. I didn't really have the whole story, just the characters, and I couldn't think of the perfect opening line. That tripped me up for years, too, wracking my brain for the perfect opening line. I decided just to start writing from the scene I knew, which was a few chapters into the book. I wrote that scene. Then I wrote all the way to the end of the book. Then I went back and wrote the beginning. Then I wrote another book. Then I wrote two more.

Without story, my life would be vastly different, and not in a good way. My inner life was frightened and cornered. I had no door. Story allowed me to open the door.

I don't know where story will lead me next, but I'm just going to trust it and follow.

"I've got an open door...it didn't get there by itself." - Annie Lennox

Work in progress excerpt

I didn’t have a computer anything. I didn’t trust them. People shot their mouths off too much on the computer and secrets got told, and they could even be broken into, and all one’s secrets stolen. If any of my secrets got told it would be by a tongue I would then cut out.

Emily Dickinson - The Soul Selects Her Own Society

The Soul selects her own Society —
Then — shuts the Door —
To her divine Majority —
Present no more —

Unmoved — she notes the Chariots — pausing —
At her low Gate —
Unmoved — an Emperor be kneeling
Upon her Mat —

I've known her — from an ample nation —
Choose One —
Then — close the Valves of her attention —
Like Stone —

~Emily Dickinson 

WOW it's been a long time since I posted...

...but the subject is the same as the last post! I've been revising nonstop and it seems my characters have a favorite phrase: I have seen it. It kind of reminds me of Snow White and Charming on Once Upon a Time and their classic phrase: I will always find you.

Have to start posting here much more often! Place is positively dusty!